An Epiphany

Quiet, everyone! Shh! Silence before God. Something's afoot in his holy house. He's on the move! Zechariah 2:13

God, the Master, The Holy of Israel, has this solemn counsel: "Your salvation requires you to turn back to me and stop your silly efforts to save yourselves. Your strength will come from settling down in complete dependence on me— The very thing you've been unwilling to do. Isaiah 30:15 

In the moments of life when things seem dim, remember that God is using every moment for good and in every circumstance we can learn something about ourselves. 


The last few months have been hard on me. Things have happened in my life that were completely out of my control and my life became a whirlwind of emotions and chaos. Being the organized, perfectionist and planner, I felt out of control and lost. I felt like I was taking hits right and left and was trying my hardest to focus on something that was solid and steady, finding nothing. 


It wasn't until I realized that I could not do it on my own that I just let go. It didn't get better right away - it's still not "better". My life still feels out of whack and it still feels like a major whirlwind; however, I now know that I don't have to figure it out on my own - it's already done for me. 


The other morning, while driving to work, I had the radio on and I was listening to my favorite Christian station. I felt like every song was a gift from God reminding me of His love and grace. The lyrics to the songs were speaking right to me and I couldn't help but let my emotions run down my face and experience the peace that was taking over. 
One song reminded me that I'm not supposed to do it on my own. God is big enough to handle the problems for me and He doesn't need my help. In another song I was reminded that trials will make me stronger and in each one I am learning about the person God wants me to be. 


Last night I was listening to the station again when one of my favorite songs came on. I've heard this song many times before but this time I was really listening and taking in the words. The lyrics really spoke to me and I found myself being touched once again by the Holy Spirit. The song says, "Before a heartache can ever touch my life, it has to go through your hands".


God knows all. He sees all. He is making me into a stronger person and is carrying me through. He promises to never leave me and will protect me through all. 


The wallpaper on my phone is a constant reminder of the Jesus I know and love:

When you feel you're "drowning" in life's situations, don't worry. Your life guard walks on water.

My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9